FIND YOURSELF ... !!

Bhalobasha....pyaar....love...- mixture of different letter in a variant style to represent one meaning...I  don’t know what exactly it is...!! Frankly my experience in it is very little... though i sometime feel i experienced all d pain and happiness in love...!! i say “NONSENSE”...just a misconception...may be i say it to myself to runaway or excuse from many unanswered questions of my life.

Just from small observation on a biggest part of life... (may be its incorrect)

All of us had grown up by watching all bollywood stuff and created our 80% of dreams from that.... all of us r bloody “copy cats”... we don’t even create our own dreams...

we r very genius when we talk about self independent....freedom.. Blah blah blah.... but if we look it on our own life we will see how independent we r..!!(i don’t wanna explain the same old lecture...remote...computer etc etc...find out yourself)..

but y do we care to look at our self...  its me...myself...my body...my mind...no one is gonna take it... will be there always...and we take it for granted...and make our self busy in others life... obviously what else can we do...cause no one wanna sit jobless.. But no one complain when we take ourselves granted and take interest in others life problem...(the problem which is created by us )..

Think..!! Don’t we do that???

We love others... (to give them more problems)... we sympathises others thinking it might make them feel good... (Which actually does the opposite..Cause all d lies of life r said that time: P: P).. we create competition (thinking for better...and we differentiate also saying healthy and unhealthy competition...though both mean the same in reality...)..we chat ...we GOSSIP... etc etc etc..!! all r the starting route of problem ..

All these might bring fun in life...might make life interesting... but really gives happiness..???!!

 Close your eyes and ask yourself..!! am i really happy..?? u have MONEY...(most imp.)..u r great...genius...etc etc..!! but r u happy ??? Have u ever loved yourself..!! love truly....!!

 ya...may be u will say...am healthy... i have a perfect body...(zero size)..i look great..i take care of myself..i look good... etc etc... What about the mind??? What about the heart...what about the digestive system....??? etc etc.. They are not shown outside... that mean we all will neglect?? (Nowadays anyone can get a degree..Anyone can earn money....!! Because it’s something which shows to the outer world... anyone can manipulate it and live life)... what about the inner life..??The organs (scientifically) which depends on us..!! Which work like a child labour to give our manipulated outer beauty in free...!! ..

Y no one listen to it??? Y???? Y don’t we complain about it..??? y don’t we give 1000 reasons against it??? Then y at the end of our day...y we feel we r not satisfied..??????????!!

We feel bad when we don’t get others attention...but what about our mind ...who is sick of asking attention from the time of our birth..!! We usually feel like a loser when we loose something and sometime take unnecessary steps..Like suicide etc...But what about our heart which keeps pumping blood when it is lost its own self in u long back but still stay lively just to make us live..!!

Sometime we r so happy...we feel as if we got everything in our life...but after few days again life becomes same..!! Cause we don’t care about our own true real happiness.!! (which actually stays forever, but very few experienced it.. Who truly love oneself..)

Exactly like...when we wear a hat to cover our bad hair...or when we wear long sleeves to cover some mark on our hand..etc etc.... we have just learned to hide stuff..!! ppl say facing reality is hard.... but i feel more than that “facing our self is the most hardest job”.

Love...

Everyone falls in love...though some people stay bachelor and say I don’t love anyone...BULLSHIT..!!  Totally a lie...everyone falls ...maybe they r lazy to express..

How do u feel when u work a lot....??? Continuously pray for some rest... but when u gets too many days rest...u usually get bored..!! And try to find something interesting...

Our feelings..-  Love, anger, jealousy, Aggressiveness. Stubborn... etc etc.. None of them wanna be alone..!!

Feelings which define our self...which control us ...which makes us alive... Etc etc etc (dialogues: P J)...

When we love someone we take them as our part of life...and start our usual job of taking granted..!!  But we always forget no one wanna be alone...

Ppl say ...he ditched her...she ditched him...etc etc...Many unlimited stories...most of it created by the gossips..!! when ppl r in love they r believed, seen as a 1 person...and the same thing is done the way we take our life for granted and in return we get loads of disease as a gift..!! In love too we get in return the painful life to live..!! Both mean the same but in a different style..!! Like different font style but depicts the same thing..!!

We r always ready with hundred of reasons to blame others..!! But have we ever tried to blame our self with hundred of reasons and find out the mistake...!! NEVER..!! This is where we lack...and this is what has given birth to the meaning of “GRANTED”...

Respect your own life...the u don’t need to work too hard to gain respect from others..

“My salute to those who lives their life to keep their inner life alive”..!!

I have wrote a big lecture..Essay...whatever u call it..!! But truly...i don’t think so i also love myself TRULY..!! But that’s the reality..!! thats how we have made ourselves..!! may be thats y skin has so many layers to protect us from loads of pain..!! Because when something is not loved truly...except trouble...pain what else can we expect as its result !!