Psychos - CT

Friendship.. I really didn’t know what it is except reading those quotes and telling myself that’s friendship..!!

"Your friend is the man who knows all about you, and still likes you."
-- Elbert Hubbard

"Who finds a faithful friend, finds a treasure." -- Jewish saying

Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow.
Don't walk behind me, I may not lead.
Just walk beside me and be my friend.-- Albert Camus

Etc etc etc and its goes on..!!

I kept wondering .. ppl r so jobless to write such quotes… do they really mean it??... happens in reality??... There can be friends like that… it was always NO to me.. Cause I really never had good friends…

Slowly I met one girl….became friends… slowly got little close…life changed… enjoyed life with her in a different way… life was nice… enjoying each second..!! I tried to be the “quotes” type friend… mean the true friend…!! And I really made it ..!! I was true to her every sec..!! then slowly many ppl walked into our life..and both changed..!! cried like hell…. Promised to never get close to any any any person..!!

Life was moving very slowly…. Two more girls walked into my life… first we hated each other then slowly started liking each other…and slowly loved each other…and then it moved on more than friendship,… (oops don’t get me wrng… we r staright…lol)..kinda started building a relationship like sisters…

One day I read a mail which has all those frndshp quotes.. i was going to delete it…and realised its so true ..so so true..! true frnds do exist …ya ya.. and guess what… I was enjoying my life with my true friends oops sorry true sisters..!! I was completely true to them…and am sure they were also… I was nt even so confortable with my love(hs).. when I was with them I was myself…as if am talking to my own soul…

we shared every mili sec of our life..!! Every boring place we went become a memorable one … even the toilets..!! …JJ

3 of us had fun like crazy…. Wherever we go for sure we will make a hungama and then come back..!!... we r d most coolest person…I guess so..!! Used to tease each other like crazy..!! And food…gawd…better if I don’t say anything..!! Food mean race… eat eat eat as much u can….as fast u can..!! parathas will be over in a mini sec…panner….badluck which we neva got..!! food food food…. ..!!

Again many ppl started walking in…but this time we were sisters… whoever tried to walk in too much they fell down and went back..!! We never thought we r 3 we were always 1- “The 3 psychos”...Always..!! I used thank god every sec…

Again past came back to my life … words for teasing started coming out with real meaning…. Pain started walking in again … proudly I told this time u cant walk in… u cant do anything to me..!! “pain” u r alone…we r 3… "the Psychos”…so better leave… but life had different plan… “pain” again became a part of my life…again I have to live alone..

My heart is lonely…my love (hs) is with me.. But nobody can take angels place..!!

I think am not enough fortunate to be anybody’s sister..!! When I was small.. my brother was my best friend… he also left me and went to god… everyday I used to pray to god to give my bro back….i used to cry …used to feel very jealous when I saw any sisters or brothers…!! When I grew up I met my (“psycho”) friend… slowly became (“psycho”) sister(the angels) …thought god has listen to me… he couldn’t send my bro ..so he send two angels…but I was wrong again .. I was so proud to tell everybody look even I have sisters..!! but… may be I was too proud which made me left alone again..!

I hated the month February… 28thfeb 2001 my bro left me…from that time I hate february… and again my two sister just walked away on 24^th feb 2010 just like that... Without even looking back once at me…!!

Atleast I knew my brother didn’t had any choice... god forced him… but who forced my Psychos to leave me??...

Cried again silently..!! Felt like someone is squeezing my heart…someone is hitting very hard… was just praying to god pls take me pls pls..!!

Am totally left alone… life seems to be stopped…

I LOVE YOU my psycho`s..

But I don’t thnk so if they come back also I can be back truly to them… because I am really scared to get hurt again…. My heart is really weak..!!